had weeks of "down" days.
Days, that seem to turn into weeks, where you feel like you're looking down the tunnel to a life that just doesn't seem to change?
Don't get me wrong. I know that I am incredibly fortunate and blessed.
The challenges along the way are sometimes a wee bit stressing.
Sadly ... I know that mine aren't big challenges.
Others are facing those.
Stress is debilitating and I just need to figure out how to get rid of some of it.
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Saturday, May 22, 2010
I thought today was D-Day. Or should I call it S&M Day. I really think it is suppose to be 3 days from now. But I did it anyway.
I stepped on the scale for the first time in almost 30 days.
I took out that blasted measuring tape.
I took out a pen.
I didn't need a calculator.
Then I started baking some more Friendship Muffins.
I also came up with an idea that probably already exists, because that's the way my ideas work. I think having a room that you step in where they measure displaced air would be a grand thing. Then you wouldn't have to measure body areas. And ... you might get the benefit of 1/8" somewhere you hadn't even thought of! Anything to gain another 1/8" of loss would be a grand thing.
The scale hasn't moved a whit. The inches have dropped off slowly. 5.25 in a month. Okay. That's better than nothing. If I avoid that stinkin' chocolate drawer at work for the next 30 days. Walk at least 3 days a week with Leslie. Don't eat those Friendship Muffins. Maybe? I think I need a different DVD as well. I need to lose the belly fat. The pants aren't going to fit any better unless I do that. Why on earth do sugary confections have to taste so good?!
Out there to the warm sunshine.
Thursday, May 20, 2010
The Last Day of School for the year.
This afternoon I will have another senior and the last child will be promoted to her final year of Middle School.
Which means .... this summer they are going to study. How's that?
A while ago I purchased WordSmart software to prepare for SAT exams ... and it has never been loaded. I am going to figure it out and assign it.
Mom use to assign "required reading" and we all grew from it. Nineteen Steps Up the Mountain was read by all of us. Maybe I'll add some required reading to the list as well.
Then the job list. I really have to get that done. I am sooooo bad at that.
PALs class is done. I'm good for another 2 years. I cannot, simply cannot, stand command performances in front of people. My mind becomes a blank slate and I don't remember squat. Present something that I understand to 200 people. No problem. Be asked questions in front of a group and have to remember something that I have "memorized" because, hopefully, I never use it ... BIG problem.
Oh, that's what that is!
I really need to go work cardiac for a while. Maybe I'd finally get past my phobia of it. I simply don't like it ... all because I don't understand it.
Enough of that.
I came home and destressed in the greenhouse for a while.
Lots of destressing coming up on Saturday. I am moving dirt. And my beautiful cherubs ... they are going to assist me. They don't know it yet ... let's not tell them quite yet.
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
This diploma was earned with many years of hard work, determination ... and probably just as many tears. I have often said that many others would have just given up. She never did. She kept plugging along and giving it her all. She worked incredibly hard to earn this special walk.
The Senior Class of 2010
Yippee!!! We're done!!!
Monday, May 10, 2010
that gave the camera many opportunities to click and clack. Let's see if you're still with me at the end of it all!
Jari texted me Friday and said there was a moose laying in the yard. He thought she was probably in labor and was hoping to see a twin birth. She finally got nervous when he inched too close with the camera and took off. I haven't seen any babies and I don't know where she took off to, but she was beautiful! I watched her, thinking I don't know if I could kill one ... even if the freezer is empty!
Saturday brought an afternoon of heart wrenching sorrow. The sun was high in the sky and the day couldn't have been any brighter when Eric and Katrina laid their baby to rest. Some people may think that bringing cameras to funerals is tacky. I believe that the final part of living is death itself. To attain the peace of Heaven is such a victory. Levi Douglas was carried to his resting place by his uncle Kevin and his oldest brother Danny.
Eric and Katrina's youngest child, Henry.
His sister's dresses with their ribbons flowing.
Ashes to ashes and dust to dust. In Alaska, it is legal to make your own coffin. Every wood fiber of this little coffin holds the hands and heart of Levi's dad.
It was a very bright day and we headed over to Richard and Carol's for lunch afterward. Yard full of children playing and deck chairs full of mom's catching sun while the snow was disappearing off Hatcher Pass.
I came home Saturday and worked my tail off. From one project to the next ... I managed to get quite a few things crossed off my list. :) It was a late one when my head finally hit the pillow. I woke Sunday morning, Mother's Day, to this
20 flower pots covered the counter. All painted with chalk board paint. Several weeks ago I had run in to Lowe's looking for chalkboard paint and pots for a fundraiser. Decided then that they cost too much and moved on to the next idea. The point of the chalkboard paint is that you can write and then erase ... changing contents and not wondering what is in the pot. (Another magazine idea from a while ago.) Blayde had been navigating Lowe's with me that day. I was a bit shocked to see the counter full of pots. Can't wait to get more seeds and fill them all!
Off to Ryan & Ambers to see Naomi Riitta for the first time. Oh, what a little love!! One look and I said "oh, my goodness!" She is so much her daddy's side of the family. No mistaking that. Even I can see it. The hair? No one knows where that came from. Maybe Pandemonium coffee??? My Anna has another little one to hold. :)
We sat outside for a while, catching rays of vitamin D. Another beautiful day. This child may have quite the tan before too long!
Home to chicken on the grill ... Fred was bbqing. Turned the chicken every 9 minutes for about 80 minutes. It was the best grilled chicken I've ever eaten in my life. Along with grilled potatoes and carrots. Yum!
Forgot to bring the camera to church with us and then when I had the thought to call Jari to bring it ... the thought sort off flitted away. Last day of Sunday School and Mother's Day combined. The kids all sang a song up in front of the church and then handed out flowers to each of the moms. My class spent it's time potting them. Individual pansy plants transplanted from a starter pack. Super cute idea, Janice!
So we come to Monday. 4 kids are out the door ... 1 more to go this morning. Off to work with me. A stop at the library on the way home. I desperately need something to listen to ... and then maybe off to the potting shed for a few minutes.
Have a safe, healthy and happy week.
Take a little time just for you!